Loveless Ruminations
Four surviving friends head back to the mainland after their nightmare stay in the ghost-infested House of Gregory. She lays back against the side of the boat and closes her eyes for what seems like only a moment. Upon opening them, everything has changed. It’s all wrong. Her friends are gaunt and dehydrated, as if lost at sea for days. One by one, they succumb to dehydration and starvation, leaving her alone. The boat runs aground on a deserted desert island. Is this the end or is this a dream? Or perhaps is there something else at play – something more sinister?
Fountain
I am the fountain that bleeds
The river that flows with blood
You laugh and hurl disdain
Enjoy the tears I cry
Your promises,
A double-edged sword
Venomous and acrid
I am the fountain that bleeds
The river that flows with blood
You have sliced my veins
Left me hang to dry
The wounds you inflict
Infected; festering
Gangrenous; rotting
I sit and I wonder
How you ripped my soul asunder
I thought you could move mountains
But carnage is what you thrive on
Blood flows like a fountain
Desert
Left in the desert to rot
Flesh decays
Bones bleach in the sun
From when you rescued me
Then you walked away
Leaving me to die
Would have been much kinder
To never stretch out your hand
Would have been much kinder
To rip the flesh from my bones
You gave me hope
I never had before
You teased me with heaven
And then you walked away
What choices do I have
So many yet so few
What life do I have
So little left to do
A mad oasis in the middle of the desert
A mad soliloquy echoes in my head
 So close I could touch it
So far I never really had it
Cut me and watch me bleed
Cut me - end this misery
Death is better than this torture
The only form of nurture
Cut by the blade
Cleaved through and through
Damned though I do not,
Condemned though I do
Now I throw myself
Upon this pike
Cowardice
Disguised as might
And thus I walk away
You held out your hand
Bandaged my wounds
Kissed me oh so tenderly
- and then you walked away
So I sit with wounds reopened Waiting to die
Stranded in the desert
Bleaching in the sun
Left here to rot
Scavengers pick my
carcass clean
Open Water
Struck in open water
Mighty ship goes down
Set adrift toward slaughter
Hatred shown through kindness
Despise disguised as love’s brightness
Listing, bobbing, set adrift
Fiery sun a-blazing
Reflecting in the ocean mist
Better that we had drowned
Set free, not ocean-bound
But the sun blazes on
To the dusk from the dawn
We slowly cook in our own skins
Pray for starvation to set in
Lips dry, cracked and bleeding
Tongues swollen, choking
Pray to God, entreating
“Please end this torture
Lift us to nurture”
Each in turn falls asleep
To dream eternally
Leaving me to brave the sea
Better that I had died
Set free, not on this tide
Another mirage looms ahead
Teasing salvation
I beg you let me join the dead
Don’t leave me here on this ocean
Fall into unconsciousness
To eternal sleep
Awakened from sweet lifelessness
Run aground on this beach
Stranded alone
No will to live
No will to die
I just survive
Abandoned hope
Live out my days
Stare at the depths
And wait for death
Hatred shown through kindness
Outcast
Outcast
Friendless
Nailed myself to this tree
Lonely
Exiled
Wand’ring eternally
Reveled in my fantasy
I never knew
You hated me
I sit now
Rotting in misery
No miracle to save me
No soul in this shell
Hollow, empty
I meet my destiny
You were never part of me
Every time I think I’m rid of you
You waltz back through my door
Can’t expunge you from my mind
Can’t evict you from my thoughts
Can’t extract you from my heart
Can’t extricate you from my soul
Won’t bear this torment any more
Won’t walk this path any more
Won’t climb this hill any more
I can never reach the top of this
mountain
I belong nowhere
I befriend no one
I am welcome in no home
In this storm I die alone
Lost at sea and none will know
Drifting on the tide till sweet Death takes
me home
A nomad
Throughout life
Without joy
Without love
Without hope
Without a heart
Without a soul
And soon to be without a mind
I’ve lost myself
Blood Eagle
You have ripped my chest in two
Never even knew
Life within just bleeding out
Gladly handed you my soul
As if you would make me whole
Now choke on each blood-filled breath
If I set you free
Lock myself within a cage
If I let you live
I will die before old age
Blood Eagle
Gagging on every breath
Blood Eagle
Rips the life from my chest
In kindness you choked my
breath
In loving you delivered death
Sirens calling me to dock
Dashed upon the rocks
Dying staring at the sun
Took me in and healed me
Dressed my wounds completely
Took your blade and started ripping
You have set me free
Locked me up within a cage
You have let me live
Yet I’m dead before old age
What madness is this?
I cannot let you go
No matter where you cut
I gladly give you more
My blood flows freely
Pooling at my feet
There is no more pain
Only desolation
- Isolation
- Drowning in my own blood
I prayed for reclamation
Dreamed of a knight on a
white horse
I begged forgiveness
Could I have saved myself?
The fates are cruel
Death now divides this fool
You've dissected me to shreds
To the wild dogs then fed
I was still alive and breathing
With your kindness tortured
With your softness murdered
Can I finally be set free?
Forever Alone
Surrounded by the world
But there's no comfort in numbers
An Island of one
Miles of ocean between
Barren trees give no fruit
Barren land yields no crop
An idle mind turns on itself
Despair, depression, insanity
Solitude destroys
Kindest words do cut
Actions oppose words
Retreat into my mind
Barren trees give no fruit
Barren land yields no crops
An idle mind turns on itself
Despair, depression, insanity
Forever alone
A begging orphan
A waif on the street
Longing for a home
Try to avoid my fate
Surrounded by the world
But there's no comfort in numbers
An Island of one
Miles of ocean between
Barren trees give no fruit
Barren land yields no crops
An idle mind turns on itself
Despair, depression, insanity
Black Widow
“Welcome to my parlor”
Said the spider to the fly
So you flew right into her web
There’s something that you didn’t realize
“Come sit down and have some tea”
The spider beckoned you
Sunday morning in the garden
You never knew the main course was you
Welcome to the Black Widow’s Nest
Who are you, a lover or a guest?
Either way, you’re just another pest
Come on in and take a little rest
When it’s all too late
- You realize -
You’re trapped in a web
- You’re paralyzed -
She’s smiling at you…
She’s walking toward you
- You see her eyes -
And she bares her fangs
- You think you’ve won
the prize -
She’s smiling at you -
“Welcome to my parlor
Why don’t you come on in?”
Another Déjà vu
And you feel like you are in Heaven
“Come sit down and have some tea”
You heard this line before
So you sink deep in the cushions
“There is always room for one more”